The Longest Goodbye

The Longest Goodbye

I remember it like it was yesterday. It was twelve years ago when life was about playdates and nap schedules and making sure my kids ate their broccoli. My mom and I were driving in the car. We had gone to her school to pick-up some paperwork and were heading to my...
The Gift of Adversity

The Gift of Adversity

When it is dark enough, you can see the stars. ~ Persian Proverb I’m often asked how I remain positive and joyful in the face of adversity. Each time I pause and struggle for words, unable to fully describe the capacity of my heart and mind to laugh and cry...

Living in the Gap

  This is really hard for me to say out loud. I think that is why you haven’t heard from me for so long. Writing about cancer and chemo and community – well that was easy. You all listened to my heart and rallied around me and carried me through one of the...
45 Lessons from the Smack Dab Middle

45 Lessons from the Smack Dab Middle

So today I turn 45 years old.  I’m not usually affected by birthdays, as they just seem to come and go and blur together. But 45 seems like a midway point to me. If I am fortunate to live until I’m 90, then I have lived half my life and still have half my life ahead...
Allowing Emptiness

Allowing Emptiness

emp·ty ˈem(p)tē/ adjective 1. containing nothing; not filled or occupied. Synonyms: vacant, unoccupied, uninhabited, untenanted, bare, desolate, deserted, abandoned. Empty. It’s not a word often associated with the positive, especially when used as an adjective...
Am I Really Cancer Free?

Am I Really Cancer Free?

  Y’all, the last 24 hours have been rough!  I always say that my life is pretty much an open book, but every so often there is a secret that I tuck away in a dark lonely place for fear that if it comes to light I won’t have the strength to bear it....