So, I have been putting off responding to all of the beautiful messages and posts until I had time to respond to each and every one personally. Well, tonight I have come to the conclusion that that is just not going to happen. While I would like life to slow down and allow me the time, there are guest beds to make, pies to bake, and well, time just seems to be speeding up. So, I want to thank each of you, sincerely and from the bottom of my heart. I have read every post and message. I have listened to every voicemail and read every email. I am thankful for each of you. For your kindness and caring, generosity and love, and most of all your friendship and prayers. Please know that your prayers are felt in a very real way as I walk through this storm with a feeling of peace that truly does surpass all understanding. I feel so loved and supported. With you all by my side I know I have the strength to face anything.
It has been so cool to see how God is moving in my life in the past few days. I want to share one of my favorite random moments. I was at Trader Joes on Sunday (if you know me well you know that is one of my happy places). I had a cart FULL of groceries as I was shopping for my Thanksgiving feast. As I was checking out I made small chat with the cashier and the woman bagging my groceries. The woman bagging my groceries asked me what I was doing for Thanksgiving and I told her that my 3 month old nephew was coming to visit (oh yeah, my sister and Brian too). She proceeded to tell me that she had a 3 month old as well. She asked me if I would like help out with my groceries. I always decline but being a little sore from my biopsy I decided to take her up on her offer. We continued to chat about motherhood as she loaded the bags in my car. As we were saying our goodbye’s I decided to introduce myself. “Well, my name is Heather, it is nice to meet you. Thank you for helping me with my groceries. Enjoy your sweet baby.” With a big smile on her face, she told me that her name was Heather as well. And then, she looked at me with the kindest smile and said, “You know what our name means right? Heather is a Scottish flower that is known for it’s ability to thrive in heavy storms and inclement weather.” Tears welled up in my eyes as I told her about the week I had just had. We literally stood hugging in the Trader Joe’s parking lot, both weeping. It was such a precious moment, complete strangers embracing, sharing more than just a name.
This is just one of many sweet moments I have had over the past several days. Yes, the cancer colored glasses can be uncomfortable to wear but they have given me a perspective that helps me appreciate life in a more intense way. They have helped me see the beauty of my family, friends and community. They have helped me see more clearly the generosity and kindness of others. They have given me eyes to see the way God is caring for me in every way possible, even in the parking lot at Trader Joes.
With a full and grateful heart,